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ATE UP!

WRITTEN BY: WENDY ARTIS
Published July 22 2003

I LOVE YOU , YOUR PERSONALITY, AND HOW YOU MAKE ME FEEL IN EVERY SENSE WHEN I’M WITH YOU. THERE’S A PART OF THIS I CAN NOT TAKE, IT’S THE PART YOU PLAY IN MY LIFE WHEN I’M NOT WITH YOU.

CAN I EVER FEEL MY CUP?..... I STOP AND THINK "I’M ATE UP".

WHEN YOUR’ET THERE A PART OF ME IS EMPTY. I CAN’T JUSTIFY, UNSATISFIED, I CAN NOT LIE. WHEN I’M WITH YOU YOUR ALL IN MY SYSTEM, IN MY BLOOD, DOWN ON THE INSIDE. LIKE A VIRUS WITH NO CURE, RUNNING RAPID THROUGH MY VEINS. NO MEDICINE TO HELP. THE ONLY FIX IS THE "HOST" AND EVEN THEN I DON’T GET THE RIGHT DOSE.

I FACE IT "I’M ATE UP".

I HAVE TO FIND MY WAY THROUGH THIS DESSERT OUT OF THE MIRAGE WHERE I SEE THE WATER BUT MY THIRST IS NEVER QUENCHED. I KNEW FROM THE BEGINNING I WAS TAKING ONLY A PIECE, ONE THAT WAS SO GOOD BUT NOW LEAVES ME INCOMPLETE. I CAN’T LET THIS LOVE TURN INTO HATE, MAD AND FRUSTRATED ALWAYS ENDING UP LATE.

I LET MYSELF FALL, GET OUT THERE A LITTLE TOO FAR WHEN IT CAME TO YOU. DON’T KNOW WHY OR HOW BUT THAT’S THE WAY IT IS. THIS MAY SOUND FUNNY TELLING YOU HOW I FEEL, BUT AT LEAST WHEN YOU LOOK BACK YOU’LL SEE A WOMEN WHO KEPT IT REAL. WHY KEEP LYING TO MYSELF WHEN IT COMES TO YOU. PRETENDING WERE NOT LOVERS THAT WERE JUST "REAL COOL". I WON’T KEEP WONDERING LIKE A LOST PUP,

I’M SAYING I’VE FOUND OUT "I’M ATE UP".

 

A LOT OF PEOPLE SAY THAT I LIKE IT THE WAY IT IS. PLAYING 2ND BEST OR PART TIME FRIENDS. BUT I’D PUT MONEY ON THE FACT THAT SOMEONE’S SAD PUTTING ON SMILE, PLAYING GLAD. THEIR HEART IS INVOLVED THOUGH THEY TRY TO DENY...REALITY CHECK...YOUR NOT SATISFIED!!

 

SOMETHING’S HAPPENED ON THE INSIDE AND TAKEN ROOT TO MY HEART, IT BECOMES MALNOURISHED WHENEVER WE ARE APART. THIS MAY NOT BE SERIOUS AND MAY BE BORING BUT THE THING OF IT IS "APART" HAS PLAYED THE MAJORITY. WHEN SOMETHING’S NOT FED IT WILTS AND DIES OFF ENDS UP LYING IN A BOX WEARING THE LAST BLACK SUIT.

FOR THIS SOMETHING HAS TO DEPART I HAVE TO UP ROOT WHAT’S TAKEN HOLD OF MY HEART. I’M NOT SATISFIED, I CAN’T HELP IT BUT I CAN BE A WOMAN AND FACE IT, YOU MAY SAY I’M CRAZY NOW THAT YOU’VE HEARD THIS AND CRAZIER THAN THAT - COULD I HAVE ONE LAST KISS?

I HOPE THIS WASN’T TOO DEEP BUT DEEP WAS WHERE IT’S AT. NOW REST YOUR MIND, I’VE NOW EMPTIED MY CUP I’M FINISHED FACING THE FACT THAT

I WAS "ATE UP".

 

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